May 22, 2010
There’s just something about standing outside on the porch on a cool, spring night in a pair of capris, a light weight t-shirt and bare feet. I cannot explain it. Most of the time, I hate being outside in bare feet. No, that’s not true. I love the feeling of the sand between my toes as the waves rush over them at the beach and I do like the feeling of damp grass beneath my feet (as long as I’m sure there are no bees about since I’m allergic to them). Tonight while watching The Blind Side we happened to see tail lights flashing out front. When we looked, we saw two police cars just sitting there. No lights on and no police officers about just two cars sitting out front. So we were standing out there looking around. And it was so peaceful and quiet and I just loved it. I wished that we had a chair or something out there. I would have loved to have curled up out there and just…watched cars and starts. Normally I’d say and read but I think turning on the porch light would have ruined the ambiance that was out there. No, I would just like to curl up and watch cars. The stars are there when the clouds move. *sighs* It’d have been perfect.
I did get to watch The Blind Side. Can I just say that it was an excellent movie? I have wanted to see it since they first started advertising it last year and I finally got to see it. Personally, I highly recommend it and want to watch it on something other then my computer. Not that the computer isn’t good or anything but I just want to watch it on the TV. Which I will. Soon. Now I have the book to read. Tomorrow I am going to try watching The Book of Eli again. I started before The Blind Side but the first seven minutes were…boring. Very, very boring. And I’m sleepy so I wasn’t going to even try it because I just wasn’t going to pay any attention to it. I’ll try tomorrow after I go to the grocery store and find food. I have the house to myself again. So quiet movie day. Unless someone wants to do something?
Okay – bed time.
May 22, 2010
Today I’m a) wearing light colors and b) don’t have jeans on. Yup, that’s right, I have on tan Capris and a light gray v-neck t-shirt. I was going to wear my sandals but since there is walking involved and my left ankle still gives me problems with massive amounts of walking, I opted for sneakers to be on the safe side. Don’t need to injure/re-break my ankle. Charged the battery to my camera last night, moved everything I could possibly need to a smaller purse (inhaler, credit cards, Barnes and Nobles/Boarders card, money, lip gloss, notepad, cash and gum), and made sure the cats have food/water. Downloaded two movies to watch when I get home and now I just have to go clean out the front floor of my car since I’m picking up Pam and I’ve got stuff there with the move.
Philadelphia here I come. Pictures to follow later.
Oh – and I’m taking recommendations for movies I should get. Recommend!
May 21, 2010
So last night I mentioned that I had found some clips from Whose Line Is It Anyway to watch. Well, I also found it to download. Guess who downloaded the first and second season. Yup, that would be me. I love this show. I’ve watched two episodes tonight and am now on my third. Why can’t this show still be on? Madi likes the show too. The cat is seriously sitting behind my right shoulder watching the video on the screen. Other then the red light toy and the fish screen saver, I’ve never seen this cat sit and watch anything. Kimmy likes to watch CNN or more importantly she likes watching the little moving bar at the bottom. But Madi likes this show. She’s sitting and watching. Colin reminds me of my therapist. He kind of looks like him and the humor…yeah, I’m beginning to wonder if our therapy sessions could qualify as a Whose Line is it Anyway. We should start taping them.
Tomorrow Pam and I are taking on the Reading Terminal Market in Philadelphia. I don’t know if I should say God help the city or not. In one sense, how much trouble could the two of us possibly get into and on the other hand, how much trouble can we not get into? There will be pictures. There will probably be pictures of us taking pictures of each other. And there will havoc. I cannot wait.
Once I get home, it’ll be a) homework time and b) movie time. Don’t know what movie yet. Any suggestions?
May 20, 2010
Tonight I went to dinner with Gretch and my favorite little cuddle bug. It was nice. And apparently Nathan loves my hair. Standing on my leg, bouncing up and down, he kept grabbing onto my hair and holding on. Or twisted it around his hands and chewed on it. Didn’t bother me though, I thought it was cute. Okay, so it did hurt a little but what can I say. He’s also a typical man, he kept trying to get my shirt off. Six months old and he’s trying to pull my shirt off. LOL. When he couldn’t get it off, he decided he was going to chew on it instead. It was all in good fun. And he was seriously cuddly tonight.
While I was waiting for them to arrive, I was playing on YouTube watching random videos. I started out watching some little clips from Family Guy. That was fun but then I did a random search and came across Whose Line is it Anyway. I miss that show! It was great. I didn’t even think they were on YouTube but they are. I’ve been watching them along with the Flyers game since class was over at 9 tonight. I cannot stop laughing. And you know what – laughing is great therapy. Add in the Flyers are not doing good tonight and I need something to laugh about.
Alright, going to go watch Whose Line on commercial brakes from the hockey game.
May 1, 2010
Happy May 1st. I cannot believe that we are already in the fifth month of the year. Especially since most of the changes I was suppose to make were to occur in January and I’ve been avoiding them like the plague. Guess since we’ve reached May I’ve got to pull my head out of the sand and actually deal with things. Blah. Oh well. It could be worse.
I was going to work on packing books in my room today only to realize that I had no boxes. My step-father is going to bring me home some from work but he isn’t going to be home work awhile. Seems he had to drive up to Harrisburg and bring the van down. It has a boo boo. This means he took my car for Steve to drive down which leaves Jenn carless. Not an awful thing though I would have liked to go to B&N. A little human contact would have been nice. 
I couldn’t even work on getting the books together to pack because I need a bed to sleep on. Guess I know what I’m doing tomorrow. No, today I played the Sims 3 for a bit, WOW for a bit and spent some time researching the family tree. Didn’t get very far on that but I did find that my 3rd great-grandfather was born in June of 1870 in Newent, Gloucestershire, England. And I keep typing 1970 which would be impossible considering it’s my 3rd great-grandfather. LOL. I want to see what other sources I can find to begin digging in England. I do have the magazines though most are at the other house at this point so they aren’t helpful. But from what I can tell, most of my relatives come from England and Germany. At least I have an idea now. That’s a huge plus.
Tonight I’m super tired and I really don’t know why. I slept last night though I did wake up at 8 this morning and I really haven’t done too much today when I realized I didn’t have the boxes. Tomorrow I’ll try and get through at least the one corner of my room. At this point, my mom told me I have to get it done. I’d say meanie but she’s right and it is her house after all. And she’d like to sell it. Madi doesn’t like the thought of me doing anything but paying attention to her though. She’s gotten very clingy that past week. Not complaining, I love my little cuddle bug but ten pounds of cat get heavy after they settle in to sleep on your chest. Plus, I am allergic to cats so her laying up against my neck…yeah. Okay, yes, I’m allergic to cats and I have one. Sue me. I’m also allergic to dogs. Actually, I’m more allergic to my dad’s dog then I am my cat. Maybe I should get a hamster. Or a fish.
And Madi wants to cuddle so I guess I’m going to go lie back and cuddle with the cat. Next time I complain that no one wants to cuddle with me, remind me of my cat!
April 30, 2010
So a I was walking across the street today at lunch to get my lunch (yeah, way to be obvious), I looked at my arm and realized I’m freakish pasty. The sun literally glows off my arm. Or at least it was from the angle it was at. By white, I mean it’s like trying to look at snow on a sunny day in winter. LOL. I needed sun glasses to look at my arm. Of course, spend a few minutes in the sun and I’m suddenly lobster red. And as skin cancer runs in my family, I think I’ll stick with being pasty.
Now I’m going to go be a freak and read my horoscope. And then play the sims 3. Because playing God and controlling my life in a game is so much nicer then not controlling my own. Okay…and that might change since Madi wants to cuddle and the cat usually wins. She has claws…and I refuse to hurt her.
April 27, 2010
He’d rather not come in one morning to find me having climbed into his second story office window, curled up in the corner hugging my knees and rocking back and forth. He then stopped and said that with me, I’d be hanging from the tree outside his window rocking back and forth and throwing stones at the window. And when he asked me to come in, I’d just shake my head and mutter something completely insane. So no, I am not even ready to contemplate that aspect of a relationship.
And if anything does happen, I am to call him right away and he’ll call me back. Because while I am making progress in this thing called humanity, I still am not 100% better yet.
My head is…a bit weird today. I’m tired and cranky and sick and yet I’m still being introspective. That said, here’s today’s realness of Jenn…which I’ll put behind a cut since guys probably won’t want to read it.
I have always found it difficult to express my inner, more deeper feelings. Sure, I can share the…lesser feelings but when it comes to matters that are deeper and more personal, I find that I have a really difficult time doing so. It’s like there are two Jenn’s inside of me; the one who everyone gets to see, and the one who is on the inside who no one gets to see. It’s tiring having the two but I…just…have so many insecurities that I never let the real Jenn come out anymore. For so long, I tried to be who everyone wanted me to be and who I wanted to be. But it didn’t work. In the end, everyone still walked away from me. People who I thought were my friends – people who KNEW how much I had been hurt in the past by people – still just walked away.
And it made me realize that I truly did not and do not matter to anyone.
February 4, 2010
Dear woman who works at Barnes and Nobles. When my friend and I were looking at books in an isle for an extended period of time, you came up to us and told us that we had to move; that we could not loiter in an isle. You then proceeded to follow us around the store until we left. Tonight when I stopped at Barnes and Nobles, there were two teenage girls spread out across an entire isle with notebooks and textbooks. You walked past them without saying anything. I waited, you came back and again you walked past them without saying a thing to them. WTF? We are standing in an isle and you feel the need to tell us that we are loitering. Two girls are spread across the isle and you say nothing to them? How the hell is that fair? Were I not to love books so much, I would never visit the bookstore again. But I cannot say that. So I hope you get a papercut. On every finger. Twice. Blah.
Sorry, just had to get that off my chest. I probably should have said something but I feel like crap and I would have bitched her out. Because how is that fair? We weren’t spread across an isle. We were in it looking at books, yes. But not taking up the entire thing.
January 15, 2010
Tomorrow is Wicked! Yay! I cannot wait to see this musical. I have been waiting ages to see this and finally, the day has come. I just hope I don’t start singing along because I did that to Phantom of the Opera when I finally got to see that. So here’s hoping I don’t start singing along to this. But over all, I am super excited. I’ve read the book and I’ve listened to the soundtrack and I do know that two are different but I think I actually like the musical better then the book. Though thinking about it, I might read the book again.
I’ve been working on thegrrlgeek.net and while I haven’t gotten much up there, I am having fun adding in the code. Okay, so I did not design the actual layout but as I am adding content, I do have to work with some of the code. If I didn’t have such a problem with creating graphics, I would have tried doing the entire layout by myself, but I completely suck when it comes to graphics. That has always been my downfall. The coding not so much. With a little reading and a little work…and some memorizing, the coding flows along easily. Anyways, I’ve been working on it though I do still have a lot more of my various writing pieces to get coded and then uploaded but I’ll work on that tomorrow when we get home from Wicked. Tonight…my brain is mush and not actually putting together solid thoughts. Which is actually kind of fun in an over tired haven’t really slept much or eaten much the last week type of way.
